Seperation, addiction, fights, Divorce

Somethings in life you dont think will happen..........HAPPEN! when your little you dont think any bad things will happen! But for me i don't think that anymore. I'm talking about divorce, addiction, fights, or  anything else thats hard in life. I'm not talking about hard things such as, not getting some gadget or shoes or clothing or rock revivles, miss me jeans! I always feel like i need those things but, as i realize now as i type this i think i have all i need right here! Remember this: Most likely the person who has the cutest clothes, all the cute trends, and it seems like there life is just absolutley perfect! Everyone even the one person who has the most perfect life!...............dosen't. everyone has something going on at home or school even anywhere! I learned that at school. And people are always telling me your life is perfect you have such cute clothes! But actually i don't i also have a secret too. I think that little saying mostly explains me and my life. In august it all started. My mom and Dad sat us down and told us that they were gonna be seperated. I thought that was just fine my dad got an apartment he stopped over every night for a few hours and went to his apartment. I didn't think anything was different much about my old life and my new life like this. but then, i would start to hear yelling and fighting going on. It would happen alot. Then this is where I started to ask questions and get concerned. We went out to eat one night as a family and my Dad ordered a beer. Your probably thinking no big deal! But it was to my family. My dad had an addiction before but, that was before I was even born. But my mom told us about his addiction that he used to have and how long it had been since he had a beer. So it kept happening and happening he would order beers. It was awkward. It felt like the beer was a dancing monkey on his head, like you kept looking at it and looking at it! Its awkward if you think about trying to have a serious conversation with someone and theres a dancing monkey on his head. So moving on one night i went over to his apartment with Callie and we were helping him clean because it was kinda dirty cause he just moved in! i got thirsty and went into the fridge to grab some lemonade and when i opened it i saw two almost three rows of beers. I was scared. Its like finding a brain or a dead body in a fridge! Its scary and thats when questions start popping into your head. "is this bad?" "should i say something?" Like that kind of stuff.  I told my Mom. ( anyone would ) Im not gonna tell all the alcohol stories because we would be sitting here forever. So 2 days ago me Jake and Callie found out that it turned into a divorce. I felt like my world was spinning. If you ever had such a shocking moment in your life you would know what im talking about. I was speechless my mom was crying Callie was crying. ( jake wasn't but i knew he wanted to ) I was crying. I totally new it was coming because of all the chaos that was going on in the last several months, but it was just a moment of sorrow depression i couldn't hold it in because seeing my mom and sisters' faces was just so hard. Its hard seeing people you love crying so it just feels so contagious to your heart and you just can't hold it in it just catches you and whips you right in like the flu. I felt like telling my friend sydney because we were talking about how Brian Robison ( from the book Hatchet ) had divorced parents too.  I just wanted to tell someone because just to let it out! Now you know, my story and my secret.

                                                                        Xoxoxoxoxoxo,

                                                                               Kira :)